Tuesday, April 28, 2009
"it's gonna be the last time for you to be in CO"
- Poh ZY
this simple sentence just tore right
thru me shattering me into zillions of minuscule
smithereenssimple how it seems right?in another 8 days it would be Singapore Youth Festival Central Judging 2009in that rush of a couple hoursmonths of practice and hard workmonths of blood, sweat and tearsmonths of xi nu ai lemonths of laughtermonths of angermonths of sadnessmonths of frustrationmonths of sleepless nightsit will be silenced with a very enigmatic full stopthat was what i picturedthe road in CO was full of surprises, shocks, and discoveriesback in sec onemy senoir asked me to join bandbut i went to CO cos my parents recommended meand that time my class had alotta ppl joining as welli remember that time the first day we wentnext day we were already (for me at least) proudly wearing our CO badgesi was like, really proud of the badgethen they were asking us our musical backgroundsand they gave me priority to choose instrument cos i had violin grd 5and that time there were so many pro yang qin senoirswhen we went around listening to the diff instrumentsthe solo that deshun and enqing played was just mesmerisingso obviously i said "yangqin"haha, then my father was saying, why not choose dizi, yq so big and heavydizi very light and play loads of stuffof even erhu cos i know violinbut yang qin it wasme and wei jiehaha, practice was horrible3 hrs twice a week, just hitting x 100 timeswe totally didnt know what we were doingcos lao zhou was practicing with the rest dong hai yu ge( best song i heard that time)then lao zhou just threw us in when we didnt even know any notes on the yangqinthen tong neng and rong chuan was teaching us how to playnext day, which we obviously still cant play anything, lao zhou scolded me like crazy...holding back those tears was so painful...so i practiced yangqin like madsuccess was bittersweetlike sec 3 then i realised my technique was wrongbut the melodies played were just hypnotising to melooking around at each CCA maze my batch were like crazy idiots XDwe would shout to the uniform groups saying " (whatever-uniform-group) SUCKS!"hahawe (most of us anyways) really enthu like madaside from all the long and tough practices, my tambo section was just fantastic, dam fun all the way =)and all the senoirs, lemme salute youyou all have impressed, inspired, imparted me with so muchmichael, prahlad, meng tak, deshun, rong chuan, en qing, kenneth, jonathan, joel, lian kai, gary, kai li, vincent plusplusplus so many countless othersand watching SCO perform was quite breathtakingesp since seeing them perform last sat with ziyangno matter what happened, CO always seemed to brighten my daydidnt matter that in CRYSI-Z i was the only one not in a uniformed groupdidnt matter how many push-ups other ppl could do and i couldntdidnt matter what stupid things that happened in COdidnt matter how late practices draggeddidnt matter what other ppl said or thought of COCO was something that made my dayand i feel so fortunate to be an exco, having a chance to be a leaderand the last SYF with the guys, tambo and all in 2007how can i say how sad it was for me when we got a silver?watching the other school(cant remember) scream and cheer over their gold was totally dampening for mebut our senoirs just went and cheered for usi think i believed that to be my last SYFokays, JC roadPAE was highand judo was all the rage in my OGmind you, it was funi also wouldn't have minded abit of training b4 NSand estelli was in CO too, yangqin also somemorei guess ignorance was bliss, totally didnt know about NYCO at alluntil like, CNY when i saw CO performhaha, til then still no intention of joining COthen came along Tan Jun Xihaha, history is quite wrecked with himalways hitting me in mshsand here he came, crashing, appealing, and overall bringing me back to COinitially another reason why didnt wanna join CO cos i thought they had too many yangqin players, why come and be extra?first time, went for J1 meeting, or somethingfilled in particulars form etc etcthen met zhiyun, who was already like, in charge of so many things XDwhen they asked soemone to be in charge of tambo, she immediately kena to be temporary SLafter that got along wuite well with her, cos everything also help her since everyone else boh chaphaha, then orientation was spastic XDelections was worse XPsit in one circle, intro, vote, full stopfirst time i saw ziyang and jun yuan i thought they were retainees (o crap, now they really are, so sry!)and of course i propeled into CO/ Judo lifejudo- mon and thur training, wed gymCO - wed sectional and combinedhaving 2 ccas was no jokei mustve been insane to think i could handle it along with 4H2 combitotally didnt study at all, failed most tests and doddled in classas much as i tried to do work, didnt have much motivation and was quite tired out by 2 ccassynergy 08 was loads of funmet jingyu and huiquanfirst performance in NYCOdidnt get to know much of the senoirs cos they pretty much left after the J1s came innot much of the senoirs stayed to help perform in synergythen afterwards was totally us J1s onlybut it was great funalong with the troubles, messes, problems all aroundhad gd timeand i quit CO cos having 2 ccas was driving me crazyand decided CO thenafter some performance at marine parade CC went to Dajiit was quite a wreck that timeonly had like, ziyang and rarely seen poh yihryna and shirley...best not to mentionand pei ling, jing hui and wei qi change from daji to zhong ruan cos we really lacked zhongruanteaching them thoery was nostalgic cos thats all that i could do for my tambo junoirs in MSHS also XDwas it was worthwhile for meand getting their timings and beats right was enriching XDand going for both tambo and daji sectionals was tiring also XPso most of the time it was me and ziyangand wu lao shi came along, trying to help my dead left hand...up til 2day, as much as ive tried, it still remains half dead...but it was fun, as little ppl as we hadwearing the CO shirt was simply my pride once again, just like my MSCO badgediscovered the existance of eason XD beofre i only knew jia xinand jlau joined CO, making us crap a whole LOT XDand eating out late on every other nightand going to junxi's house and etcand worrying for alvin and zhiyun and ziyang being retainedperforming with PRSSCO was quite uniqueesp when they have someone like wang zhuang XDtribal beat was excitingand having the alumnis and dsas zihui and alina perform with us at esplanadeand going back to music room to play and clean upand celebrating junxi's birthday and new year'sand alotta soul searchingthis year 2009can i say it was an imperfect start?immersion, open house, orientation, cca bazaarblock testcollege dayand after 4 months of working 2gether it will all end in t-minus 8 daysa couple o mishapsa couple o malfunctionsa couple o misfortunesand here we all areaiming for GWH?dance got silverguzheng got their goldbut would i be happy with gold?with each practice and extras, can we make it?as much as i scream YES inside and practice like madim feeling depressed...yeah, depressed..."it's gonna be the last time for you to be in CO"it set my thinking train alight and runningis there time to make things right?"it's gonna be the last time for you to be in CO"will everyone thats working hard taste sweet success?"it's gonna be the last time for you to be in CO"are we ready and prepared for 6th May?"it's gonna be the last time for you to be in CO"will it be all worthwhile and unforgettable or full of remorse and regret?"it's gonna be the last time for you to be in CO"sigh..................................thank you yijia for your messagesthank you daji, you guys really rockthank you senoirs for coming to help usthank you miss tan for so muchthank you everyone for working so hardi heard recently thatthings are not importantand will never remainthe journeythe troublesthe hardshipsthe tearsthe joythe friendshipthe processthe learningthe growingis all that is worthwhile of the roadand all that is gd about lifei hope that i can accept the outcome no matter what it isand use it to continue growing and going down the roadcurrent mood: depressedcurrent song: Go The Distance
--Iyner, misfit-me at 7:45 PM
