Sunday, March 21, 2010
when everything falls
you're facing four blank walls
you push yourself to go on
your heart burning and your body screaming
all about you there is no trace of hope
all within you there's only darkness
your mind pounding and flashing all you have before you
the pure helplessness that cripples you
your limbs shaking and head spinning
your whole being just hanging on...barely
the entire feeling of being trapped and inescapable
the sheer misery and bitterness which devours you
the utter and excruciating pain which leaves you aghast
the complete surrender to time and fate and everything beyond your ability




dear lord, i am your humble servant
i am nothing without your grace
whatever you lead me to, you will bring me through
i offer all to you, my happiness and my suffering






Life had begun, I was woven and spun, You let the angels dance around the throne, who can say when,
But they’ll dance again, when I am free and finally headed home

I will be weak, unable to speak, still I will call You by name
“Creator, Maker, Life-sustainer, Comforter, Healer, My Redeemer, Lord and King, Beginning and the End,
hold on to my hand,”
and You said “I am."
"yes, I am.”


current mood: depressed
curren song: I Am by Nichole Nordeman
--Iyner, misfit-me at 5:36 PM
Thursday, March 11, 2010
being terribly sick was quite an exhilarating experience
it increased my cravings and prayer mood
hospital food is not bad, only the porridge is bland
milo is nice with cream and sugar, mark my words
it helps when you cant sleep with all the maniac headaches
shant go into detail....bleah

i miss everything!
the results last fri...
but alls well should end well
AAA/CC
going back to school tomorrow to see teachers
missed fieldcamp this week....zzz
but no doubt they will make up for me XP
4 weeks to GP!
jiayou jiayou renyi!

i want...
starbucks with pohzy and weely!
dinner with CRYSI-Z!
meet up with OG26, 0814 and Group 4!
see NYCO!
teach guitar!
plusplusplusplusplus
lots of food cravings...
switching to fruit juice now!


thank you lord for watching over me



current mood: sickish, but better, thankful and grateful, still remaining hopeful XP
current song: 不能说的秘密 - 周杰伦
--Iyner, misfit-me at 9:14 PM